Relationship woes

There is no saying how or why it started. I can't even really remember what I was doing. But I was at someone's house (friends of his) and I was working really hard to do something I thought would make him happy. A girl was telling me he would really love it, but I felt she was just humoring me. Then he came by to get me. He was a combination of Lex (that was his name anyway), and Dale, and I guess the majority of men I have had relationships with. He had a german shepherd.

We were going home, he had just rented a place for us. We were driving in his old beater car and we drove to the place. I remember feeling disappointed because I didn't think he approved of all the work I had done for him. Then I remember thinking "oh well, I'm tired of trying to please guys and them not thinking they have to please me!" (this may be a real breakthrough. If I'm dreaming it, it might be set in my mind!)

When we got to the apartment, it was in a mall, but no mall like I've ever been in. It looked like an ancient city at night. We went in and there was a movie theater on the entry floor. I was all excited because we could just take the elevator up and see a movie any time we wanted. He said it wasn't like that, that the apartment was actually several feet down the hall. Then he looked at me and said "If I'd only known! I would have got the other one!"

Then the alarm went off.

Trudging through grass

My dreams were not so good last night. I dreamed that I was trying to get someplace and was trudging through a thick path of three foot high grass. I looked back and realized I had left a path through it which bothered me. It turned out to be special grass the MML was growing and she knew then she need to get Zach away from me so he would turn out ok.

Then I was in a yard with Megan Zach and Dad and Megan had this little tiny horse. He had hidden in a space behind Zach and when I tried to get him out I heard a pop. Dad said he was limping on one side and I felt horrible. I knew that I had finally done the one thing that would cause me to lose my kids forever.

Not such a good night.

Learning and running red lights to bake cookies

I know I did have the usual three dreams last night. The first I don't remember at all. I couldn't even bring up any images of it when I woke up at midnight. The second one involved a long tall man who was teaching me something. That's all I remember about it. The third dream, I remember!

I was at school, and I saw people baking chocolate chip cookies, but they were really sad looking. I knew I could make some really good chocolate chip cookies (in a pizza pan, no less) so I was running as fast as I could to get to my oven! I passed some classmates who I really didn't know and chanted as I passed that I was off to make some cookies!

I kept running, but apparently not fast enough, because my brain put me in a car so I could get there faster. It didn't give me good timing, and I ran a red light that was just about to turn green. An old woman on the other side of the intersection was thinking of turning left, but I avoided her and got to my oven where my cookies were waiting for me.

I was flattening some of them out (not something I would actually do for chocolate chip cookies) and getting ready to put them in the oven when the girls I pass came up to me all mad yelling at me because I ran over that poor old woman's dog and didn't even stop!

"I didn't hit any dogs!" I assured them, but they would listen. So I went over after they had gone and my cookies were in the oven. There was a little cocker spaniel sitting there, not dead at all. I reached down to pick it up. It was a little sore on one side, and I wondered why the "sweet" little old woman had left it there.

Turns out, she had tossed the poor little thing out the window because it was barking in her face! Of course, those girls were long gone, so as far as they know, I hit a poor little old lady's dog and just kept going.

Of course, it was just a dream, but still! I want to find those girls tonight and tell them they needed to have a little less pre-judgement happening, and a little better deductive reasoning skills in place if they want to be in my dreams!